“God is love. He didn’t need us. But he wanted us. And that is the most amazing thing!” -Rick Warren
When I was six I was IN LOVE with Aaron Carter. He was going to be my husband. I don’t mean this in the “Oh man I really hope I meet him someday and he falls in love with me” way. I meant it as fact, because to me it was common knowledge. In my head I knew, he knew, and I believed 110% the rest of the world knew. However, I was six and I have since learned that wasn’t how things worked. Nevertheless, for that short period of time, (and by ‘short’ I mean age 6-10) that was the truth, the undeniable truth.
We all believe things like this when we are young. Sometimes it’s as silly as believing if you raise a marker up in the air and draw what you wanted it would suddenly appear in real life (trust me I tried that too because I saw it on a commercial and was sorely disappointed when that swing set didn’t appear #FalseAdvertising #StillBitter) BUT sometimes these facts aren’t so silly. Sometimes these facts are actual facts that for some reason as a child we KNOW but as an adult we seem to doubt, like the fact that God’s love is unending.
“But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.” Psalm 86:15
When did we start doubting that? Was it after the first lie we told our parents? After the first time we cussed? Or was it after years and years of build up of all these little sins, all the while never once realizing that so much evil was creeping in our hearts and minds, when the real shame hits you? I’m not talking about the “Oh I’m blushing, I shouldn’t have done that, but i’ll probably do it again at some point” shame. I am talking about the wake you up in the middle of the night, send you running for the bathroom floor where you stay curled up in the fetal position soaking wet from tears, vomit, or the shower streaming over you unable to move because the shame has finally crept up and that voice is telling you that YOU. CANNOT. FACE. TOMORROW. It is telling you that you cannot face the faces of others all around you and that there is NOTHING you can do because this sin is who you are and God doesn’t want you anymore…..so why would the rest of the world? That voice is a liar. That voice’s whole point in life is to destroy you. But that’s okay because that voice won’t win. Why? Because God’s love is bigger than your shame. When it comes to God’s love there are no boundaries, no lines to be crossed, no 3 strikes you’re out. THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO THAT WILL MAKE GOD STOP LOVING YOU. How great is that?!
“But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.” Ephesians 2:4-5
Our God is forgiving, slow to anger, abounding with so much love our tiny little human brains cannot even comprehend. Imagine the love you have for a parent, sibling, spouse, or child and then multiply it by infinity. That amount of love is unreal to think about! Yet, it is real. It is fact, and for some reason God loves us that much. God is bigger than our sin, and there is nothing that he can’t bring us back from.
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” John 1:9
Now it’s time, get up off that bathroom floor and if you don’t have a six year old there to tell you about how God loves you, Inner six year old me is here to remind you.
“Come now, let us settle the matter,”
says the Lord.
“Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.” Isaiah 1:18